Born Again

Last week I started listening to the song "Born Again" by Third Day. The words fit me to a "T". On Sunday I was sent to our Plainfield campus to take photos. While there I hear the run through of the service. The main focus was on forgiveness. Dave Ferguson gave the sermon. Through his words and tears in my eyes I had an awakening and forgave my late wife for indiscretions in her past. It had been eating away at me since I found out a week after her death.

I have since re-married and always felt like I wasn't giving my all to Molly. Now, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I finally feel at peace and my life has changed for the good.

I truly feel I have been born again.

Went on our latest vacation last week. Molly and I drove to Michigan for 2 days. We went to Warren Dunes, I think that's why we're still in pain. St.Joseph, cool main street, had homemade ice cream there. South Haven, they have a neat little harbor there, also a cool main street. Lastly we went to Holland to see Windmill Island. I thought there would be lots od windmills but there was one. It was different. Got to go in and up. very old. Stayed at the Holiday Inn Express in St Joe. There was so much chlorine in the spa and pool it was hard to breathe. Overall, it was a good few days.

This past Sunday we had a different kind of church service. They had 3 friends of ours give testimony. I thought these friends had it all together. I still think they do but now I realize you just don't know what goes on behind their doors. I do knownow that Molly and I are so blessed. I complain about things but our lives are damn near perfect.

singin the blues

After fasting last night so I could get bloodwork done for an annual physical, I was doing pretty good. Mood wise that is. I was on the deck repairing the frontroom screens when 1st my son Jonathan,then Grandma-Monica's Mother called. Jon and I talked of his Mom and happy times, then Grandma called crying. I suppose it's a day even worse for her.

I feel bad for Molly cause she feels so helpless. Not knowing how to help. It is better this year than last,perhaps next year will be even better. Tomorrow is my friend Nina's 3rd anniversary of Jack's passing. I hope she does better. She's getting ready for her wedding to Joe so maybe it won't hit her as hard. I hope.

Sounds like we missed a good time at karaoke last night. wish it could have been earlier. I'm so tired waking up at 4 am , I can only imagine how wiped out I'd be if we were singing till 11 pm.

I'm fasting tonight to prepare for tomorrow morning's blood test. Just part of the annual exam. thanks God I found a doc that uses the PSA test rather than the finger prostate exam. My last doctor was kinda big with big fingers, Ouch !! It's funny how you miss stuff, almonds, chips, candy, when you have to fast.

It was a bad day at work today. 2 of the older guys tried to blame me for a problem at work. I went to one of them,proved him wrong, he tried to say it was something else I did, proved him wrong again. You would think maybe an apology would be proper? Nothing. My boss happened to be passing by and I told him. He said we can't go around placing blame and I kinda blew up, pointing out how I work my ass off while others- the 2 complainers- coast by doing as little as possible. Oh well, I got my point across.